YOU DON’T JUST LOSE SOMEONE ONCE
You lose them over and over, sometimes many times a day.
When the loss, momentarily forgotten, creeps up, and attacks you from behind.
Fresh waves of grief as the realization hits home, they are gone.
You don’t just lose someone once, you lose them every time you
open your eyes to a new dawn, and as you awaken, so does your memory,
so does the jolting bolt of lightning that rips into your heart, they are gone.
Losing someone is a journey, not a one-off.
There is no end to the loss, there is only a learned skill on
how to stay afloat, when it washes over.
Be kind to those who are sailing this stormy sea,
they have a journey ahead of them, and a daily shock to the system
each time they realize, they are gone,
You don’t just lose someone once, you lose them every day, for a lifetime.
( By Donna Ashworth)
We love you and miss you, Kayla
Love, Mom, Dad & Kieran
Gifts From Timothy
October 27th is your 27th Birthday, I have given you models over the years with your birth date on it, but since you left us 6 years ago last month, I want to thank you for several of the gifts you have given all of us. Your gifts have certainly kept our connection of love for you as strong as ever for evermore.
Here are a few of the Gifts From Timothy:
The day after you left us, in our back yard from the woods, the male bucks came out to meet and somehow have their own send off for you. The feeling/energy in the air made the hairs on my arms stand-up. Weeks later while up in your room, there was Besa’s painting she did for you years earlier of the ‘Buck in the Forest’, it looked exactly like that evening in our back yard, A Gift From Timothy.
One year later, Mom and I were up having dinner with Katherine in Portland, and it was the first anniversary of your angel date, a very tough day. As we drove away at the traffic light was a red convertible sports car. As it pulled away from the light, the license plate read: ‘For Tim’, another Gift From Timothy.
Many of your friends stopped by after losing you, and Collin told us of your last tagging (your spray painting on the overpass by MASCO). To drive by and see your artwork, as though you were just here making your final mark for us to find, A Gift From Timothy.
We feel you in the woods, at the beach, any time nature’s beauty takes our breath away, you are here with us. The sunsets, the morning sun rises, the still moments after a snow fall in winter, the autumn colors, it’s all a Gift From Timothy.
I always smile and say thank you, no need to question how it happened or any concerns why, it’s all a Gift From Timothy.
We appreciate these gifts, please keep them coming, wherever and whenever. We miss you and love you every single moment evermore.
Love, Mom, Dad and Katherine